Is been sometime since I visit my own blog.In that time frame many things had been happening to me.Sometime I wonder am I doing the right thing?This had been a problem with me for a long time.Till today I still cant figure it out.Sometime I wish I have an angle to guide me what to do and give me the answer to my problem.If I were to tell people about this, some will think is only a minor thing unfortunally for me is not.Is it so hard to fall in love and trust the person 100%?Lies come here and there, we will never know when is the truth.Some say lie are made for protection. Is that true?I would prefer to know the truth then to hear lies.Eventhough it will hurt but I guess is better to get hurt now then to get hurt deeper.With many thing happening I so scare that it wil happen to me as well.But there is a thing I would always remember in my mind, " What your is your, What not is not." I been hurting those people who care and love me so much and regret after the that.The word " sorry" are uncountable and no value any more, is like a " hello" to some people in me life.I really don't mean to hurt them,  I feel uncomfortable as well.I starting to lose my path now.I don't even understand myself anymore.I don't know what I want, I don't know am I doing the right thing and many more.I'm willing to make the change but I cant do it myself.I'm trying all my best to make the best out of it but my mind keep thinking all those negative thought with i don't want it too.Sometime I really hope they understand.I wanted to upload a picture at first but I guess is not the right time yet.Maybe in my next entries.I guess that all for now.

This month I decided to write 2 because next month i will be kinda busy preparing for my final & HOLIDAY hahahahhahhahaha.

I didn’t realize something till I read an article that had been send from one of my closes friend. Everyone of us always take things for granted. The worst part is never appreciate anything that surround us. Especially the people around you, this includes me.Doesn't  mean people dont love you the way you want them too, means that they don love u. You never know that they actually love you more then you knows.Everyone of us is diffferent, that is why we love people differently from one another. This is only the beauty of it , if everyone were to love the same way the life would be very bored. What you been thinking is not really what the other person is thinking.That is why never jump to conclusion till you hear the real thing from the person him/her self and  most importantly not from others.From the article I readed, I realize that I have been love in many ways, just that I didnt realize and always think the other way round.That is why is important to appreciate what other is doing..

This month i also have learn alot from the people surrounding me.When you wanna give, give heart heartedly, if not don give.If you are expecting something in return is better not to give as the person that you will be hurting the most is yourselves and not others.Give willingly and you wil realize that the feeling of giving sometime is better then receiving.Never expect what you could receive from other but expect what you could give to others..It will be a totally good feeling.When you open your heart, you will  realize how happy you are, even on the worst day you ever could be.Always think possitive and take problem as a lesson.On the end of a day , you will learn a valuable lesson which no one could teach and buy with money.Appreciate what you have today , cox not every day is a Sunday.Wondering why I put the picture which has no connection , well look at those smile,if we could smile like that every day, we will be fine..

This month I been to alots of up and down.Actually more to down.However this will not make my month miserable.For the pass few week I have been learning alot of thing about myself and the people around me.I have a better understanding about life now.Which is an exeperience i would never forget for life and an experience that money cant buy.I learn that , we need to appreciate what ever there is around us while we still can cox if we don it might be to late.However,when thing is bad is not going to get worst cox i believe that there is always a better tomorrow waiting for us.Believe in yourself is what most important.I also learn that is better to find the answer yourselves then to hear from others cox hearing from other might make the situation worst.Life is great enjoy every inch of it as it would be a memory to me no matter good or bad memory.This is another lesson I learn.Our age now is an age to be crazy and enjoy as much as we can and to have a freedom for everything before we get older.This is a lesson i learn from someone  that is important in my life.Thank's for that.Get to think about it is true few more years down the road we cant have this kinda freedom anymore as there is bigger obligation waiting for us..